Set me adrift in the blackness,
Let me spin aimlessly like a homeless globe,
Traversing endless light-years without bearing.
Release me to the void.
To the black velvety comfort of a lightless horizon.
I see. I hear.
A selfish bastard denying the world. One final cowardly display of spite.
I spit at thee and shut up my eyes and ears to all thy photons and surfaces and waves.
You – life animate and inanimate – force me to understand; you squeeze my head until it pops.
And I say NO! NO MORE!
I do not understand. I do not see it. I do not hear it. I am dumb and selfish; dumb for not seeing, selfish for not wanting to see.
It makes no sense! And I know!
I am absurd and I can’t help it!
I feel the dark beckoning, offering infinitely more promise, more hope, more strength, than your cold, demanding, rational chaos.
I am selfish. I see. I hear.
Now release me, let me drop, so that I may go spinning, aimlessly, optimistically, through the blackest void.